Being Leonardo

As I was walking to the train station this morning a strange feeling came over me, it took a second but I realized I was walking on my own accord and breathing the cool air. I thought to myself wow this is really nice. While waiting for the train it dawned upon me that part of my frustrations with work stems from the fact that I spend between an hour to 2 hours a day sitting behind the wheel of my car add to this the starring at a computer screen or starring at a wall in an office that I can touch both walls by extending my arms that has no window except for the dinky one in the door which looks out into the checkout lanes. My day begins with bitching about having to go to work, taking a shower, putting on the work clothes (which I'm happy to say can be either shorts and a t-shirt or pants and a t-shirt and for those brisk mornings I add my hoody), getting in my car and driving to work watching all the other gloomy people in their cars. It amazes me that the simple act of walking to the train station and taking the train has given me so much joy. I didn't even mind having gotten on the wrong train (I was headed out to River Forest), I simply laughed at my unpreparedness asked for directions and waited for the bus that would get me to work. So will this change my commuting habits? Only time will tell.

For most of my life I have been told that I have been placed on this earth to serve a purpose and for the most part I do subscribe to this notion. Lately I have been exploring this so called calling or purpose, if you will, and have come up with a number of various career choices which all sound appealing but still leaves me with quite a few choices but no answers. Wouldn't it be nice if we came out of the womb with a set of care instructions and an action plan? This way we know exactly what we are supposed to be when we grow up.

Anyway so what realizations has my soul searching revealed to me?
1. I hate being couped up in an office
2. While I like working alone I prefer to be with a group of people working on a project
3. No matter how much I tell myself money doesn't matter it does
4. Ignorant, uncaring, know-it-alls that seeme to have forgotten what common courtesy is, is what makes working retail or in the service industry SUCK!
5. I get bored very easily
6. Teaching is a very hard job (much love and praise for those who have put up with my dumb crap)

And I'm sure I've learned more about me but I just can't remember, maybe I should write down these revelations when I have them. Well that's enough ranting for the day.